So this one is probably more difficult then the previous question because a) I have many fears, b) this one is definitely more personal c) it will probably take longer to explain all of them. Some of them are more serious and some of them are just stupid. Here I go.
Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
1. I'm scared of being alone. Yes, I am scarred that I'll be single for the rest of my life, but this time I'm talking about actually, physically being alone. I'll give an example. This past February, my family left for Mexico a few days earlier then I did, so I had the house to myself. Which in theory sounds fantastic, but in reality I was freaking on the inside. Honestly, every night, I would run down the stairs, put the alarm on and run back to my room. If I keep myself occupied, I don't notice it as much, but when I do realize that I'm alone, I get super anxious. I have no idea how this came to be a fear. It just kind of happened. I would also like to point out that my roommate is gone for the night, so I need to walk back to the cabin by myself... Great.
2. Fear of dying. I'm not afraid of death in itself, I'm afraid of the actual process of dying. I'm especially scared of seeing other people get hurt and not being able to do anything to help or worse, them dying. I know exactly where this fear comes from and this is were it gets super personal. I don't want to make this into a super sob story, but basically what happened was about a year and a half ago, I was at a family gathering, my grandma collapsed and died two days later in the hospital. There are many details, but that is for another time, maybe or just ask me about it. Anyways, this is the time in my life were that fear became more intense. This can also be a positive thing, because it showed me the urgency in sharing the gospel to those who haven't heard it yet.
3. My last fear, would have to be boys. I'm kidding, but at the same time completely serious. Not like I can't talk to boys, I can. It's when you start getting feelings involved, things start getting weird and personal. I just don't like it. I've come to the conclusion that if there is ever mutual affection, he's going to have to speak first, because I can't. I don't think this is a bad thing, my man will just have to be bold. I think that this fear might have sprouted from my fear of commitment and having a boyfriend scares the crap out of me. Side note: in the past few years, I've also realized that I don't know how to flirt or I'm really bad at it... Anyways, don't know where that fear came from, but I'm working on it... Kind of.
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